1/18/26 2:44 PM

feeling really lame and not great today. won't be many updates. it's seasonal and i'll be alr eventually, just need time. there's a link where im gonna move old blog entries, as well as reordering these ones. nothing fun so check another day. sorry to be bland but just not feeling well

1/18/26 9:33 PM

link is up on the sidebar for old entires. gonna keep this page limited to ten for better load times and stuff.

1/19/26 9:08 AM

cold cold cold cold cold. very cold. however im finally done with this blasted semester but ofc we're the only school that still has class today, yeah just casually ignoring that it's a federal holiday. whatever. im absolutely starving today? and for once i ate this morning.

1/19/26 8:37 PM

something i should really work on is not assuming everyone hates me and that im a loser at any minor inconveinence. thats probably not how you spell that.but maybe i should idk do less? of everything? the only way i avoid the seasonal sad is by not letting myself have a spare moment to think about anything, but i think that overloading myself with projects and making them super public in hopes it'll keep me accountable is actually just making me burnt out and irritable. i got upset with some of my close friends today, and reacted poorly to an irritant i can normal handle, and ive been noticing it a lot lately. i think with the new semester i should focus more on a few set, solid goals every week rather than doing everything always all the time without breaks. i'm proud of my site, but it's not feeling fun right now. it might be time for a break soon. that doesn't mean full stop no edits, but it might mean slowing down a lot. i especially need to stop putting quotas for new content on myself. this is meant to be slower paced. treating this like a content farm defeats the point. whatever maybe im rambling.

1/21/26 7:27 PM

not many updates lately. been very busy with the new semester and very tired. maybe some more contetnt when i'm more accustomed to my new schedule and workload.

1/26/26 9:19 PM

hello hello hello. i got my belly button pierced! it hurt! but im so swag now! also my guitar finally got shipped. thinking about making an alien themed page for the site? is that lame? idk i like aliens. might even experiment with some hand drawn graphics. ive got some stored up that might be super cute. but that means graphic shopping which means some space between updates to the site. whatever it's my site and i dont have a quota to meet!

1/28/26 9:19 PM

i've been slacking lately with updates. its ok cuz i have lots of other things to work on. scholastic art and wrinting awards came out today. i got two honorable mentions and one silver. i should be happy i won anyting at all with the poor quality work i submitted, but it is what it is. its nowhere near last year's level. i was kinda sad and got lazy around the deadline. it is what it is i guess. its embaarrassing though.

1/29/26 9:20 PM

the unemployment jokes are kinda funny, but im actually really eager to work. i hope i get hired. i need money to save for top surgery, plus just money in general. someone somehow tried to use my card to buy something on amazon, and it was ok cuz it declined, but it declined a 20 dollar purchase because there was only a dollar in my account. it worked out fine and i locked the card, but that's highkirkenuinely so pathetic ): to whatever broke ass who tried to steal from me, sorry we're in the same boat ):

1/30/26 10:07 AM

its cold. and im always hungry in the mornings because my houseparents stopped cooking breakfast, which is bad. i used to get scrambled eggs twice a week, and no al li get is rice crispies and cinnamon toast. i am so sad and hungry. also i hate stupid teachers that think theyre funny. you are UNFUNNY and SMELLY and please leave me alone. i am tired and will not be doing anything today except play my instrument and go home because i am tired. maybe if someone i care about is going to the basketball game, i will take a brief nap and go there. however i am tired and annoyed. and kids are mean. the kids in chemistry laugh at me when i answer the questions. why do they do that? i answer all of them correctly and i dont laugh at them when they answer wrong. and they're always wrong because they are super stupid and smelly. i hate evil juniors. frowny face.

2/6/26 9:17 AM

hello guys. went on hiatus for like a week but we're back!! i get really sad and nervous in the wintertimes so i might be slower with updates until spring. things are ok enough right now that im back to work! speaking of work, i got a job! and passed my swim test! yay yay yippee!!! also stopped drinkng coffee for a while which is helping with the nervousness. im not doing great but im choosing to be silly and happy as i can. whenever i get sad y friends also get sad which is not good. so im super locked in!! very sleepy without coffee though. trying my very best because i love my friends very much. working on an alien themed page and an about me page as well! yay! these will occupy my time and hopefully keep me busy enough to not get sad till spring. spring is great bc its sunny. not being able to play outside makes me sad. last year wasn't so bad because i had musical to keep me busy. job though! money up funny down! ok my funny is still up. i hope it gets springy soon!!!!

2/9/26 12:32 PM

cooking up some lovely updates! new pages are stoill in progress but layouts are done and the pages themseles are linked on buggs corner. this is the most productive ive been in almost a month. hopefully the happy stays with me so i don't start slacking again. seasonal depression is a BITCHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ARGHHHHHHHHHH GO AWAY